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"I feel like im stuck in the middle right now- between the worst semester (workwise) and the (hopefully) best, between wanting to get through/over with highschool so bad and never wanting it to end or start bigger, harder, vague things.. Between what my heart wants and what my head wants, between wanting to travel my whole life and wanting a career, between emotions I'm afraid will wreck my heart and the suffocating numbness in the lack of them.. And that's when I have time to notice that I'm even stuck."